Ideal Protein wk 1, Day 6

This morning I woke up feeling great.  i am so excited to go to the gym.  My body doesn't hurt, my head isn't bursting and my sinus feel good.  I am still coughing stuff up and blowing my nose but it is very manageable.  I am beginning to wonder if i have a bit of an allergic reaction to dairy and/or wheat.  I know that both of these can be mucus producers.  This may really help me stay on tray if my well being is affected by what I eat.

Wow.  Today was really hard.  i just want to eat everything in sight.  Really had a hard time when i got stressed about work.  i just couldn't figure out this online postage.

I was really happy with myself.  i did not fall to temptation.  Even though i had to make cheese tacos and PBJ for the kids.  I didn't even take a taste.  Yippee for me.

i ate almost half a head a lettuce instead and had my pudding snack early.

I can't wait to weigh in tomorrow.  i hope i am not disappointed.

Weekly Monitoring

Rate the following on a scale of 1-10 (10 being the best)
Attitude 5
Physical effects 6
Impact Family 8
Cheating/Temptation 5
 Outlying factors that made this day challenging 5
(WORK, online postage, husband, kids)

Ideal Protein wk 1, day 5

Today has started well.  It is only 8:20 and I have already finished my bible study and am ready to start the day.  I slept well and have good energy.  I was REALLY glad to see the # on the scale.  I saw a big jump in the right direction.  Really helps with the motivation.

The chocolate drink* was good and I have a great selection of vegetables to have for lunch with my mashed potatoes*.

Mash potatoes were wall paper paste.  Not the worst but I have never been fond of instant potatoes.

The rest of the day went well.  I made an amazing salad and fished off the deer meat.  I need to eat my snack a little earlier and just leave a little for an after dinner snack.  it felt like I was forcing myself to eat it last night.

Weekly Monitoring
Weight Lost/gained - 203.5 at home w/clothes & shoes  TOTAL LOSS = 4.7

Rate the following on a scale of 1-10 (10 being the best)
Attitude 9
Physical effects 9
Impact Family 9
Cheating/Temptation  9
 Outlying factors that made this day challenging 8
(Husband, busy day & meeting church )

* ideal protein

Ideal Protein wk1, Day 4

Scurrying around.  the weather doesn't look good for my outdoor show today.  A lot of work getting everything together before I go to church.  Feeling good but apprehensive.  This will be my 1st day to eat on the go.  My plan for veggies is to get them at the market today.  I have a bar of some kind for my lunch.

A lady at the farmers market made an amazing salad.  It did have a few strawberries, apples and oranges but otherwise is was all amazing veggies.  The dressing was olive oil and lemon juice.  I did pass up eat any of the amazing fruit.

I was able to get some really good greens, I can't wait to try.  It was a wonderful environment.  No tempting foods or smells.

No when I got home I was starving.  Randy had grilled.  The ribs that were for me were tough and nasty.  He had made another piece of meat that was yummy but after 1st taste I could tell it was covered with sugar.  I ate it anyway.  Then I made some veggies from the market.

So I cheated a little but it was a good learning experience.  Eating a little bit of sweet fruit/sugar really increased my desire to keep eating well past being full.  Not to mention nibbling rather than making my plate is danger, danger.  Then I was to full to eat the required Ideal Protein snack.  So I didn't.

Weekly Monitoring
Weight Lost/gained - 206 at home w/clothes & shoes  TOTAL LOSS = 2.2

Rate the following on a scale of 1-10 (10 being the best)
Attitude 9
Physical effects 9
Impact Family 9
Cheating/Temptation 7
 Outlying factors that made this day challenging 7
(Craft show, eating on the run, Selling Girl Scout cookies)

Ideal Protein Wk 1, Day 3

I slept pretty well, woke up with good energy and overall feel pretty good.  i am a little disappointed that I am not down to 200 yet.  what am i crazy.  Lose 8 pounds in 3 days.  i guess I just can't believe i got this far over my 200 line.  Maybe it was that 2 weeks of steroids.  well no sense looking back.  I just really want to get down to 150 by the end of all this.  i wanted  that to be a 200 pound loss in 18 weeks.  Now I have 58 pounds to loss.  That means i would have to loss an average of 3-4 pounds a week.  Not that realistic.  Lord please make it so.

Double yuck.  The crisp cereal with powdered imitation milk.  Then to top it off my water wasn't cold enough.  I made myself eat it.  I'm not getting ANY MORE food till noon.  Grant and I had a big laugh at mom eating yuck cereal.  i did get creative with the remaining milk.  I added instant coffee, artificial sweetener and ice.  i am stomaching this quite well.

Eating unpalatable food is a good reminder at how much food and pleasure go hand and hand for me.  i am reminded that I want my pleasure to come from my relationship with God not consumables.  i never thought about my eating good food as thrill seeking, but i guess it is.  Always needing a rush of good feelings.  i may be a seeker of good emotions but i pray i can find a healthier avenue for this emotional rush.

The rest of the day went pretty well.  I wasn't all that hungry or felt deprived.  I really like the soup mixes.  I was able to add leeks and mushrooms to make a really robust soup.

Weekly Monitoring
Weight Lost/gained - 206.5 at home w/clothes & shoes

Rate the following on a scale of 1-10 (10 being the best)
Attitude 9
Physical effects 9
Impact Family 10
Cheating/Temptation 9
 Outlying factors that made this day challenging 10
(none)

Ideal Protein wk1, Day 2

Yesterday went pretty well.  The coffee shake was a good way to start the day.  I did find myself a it hungry around 10:30.  I held strong.  The best thing was my allergies were not as bad.  The pressure was down.  I woke up energized.  I drew a picture of the skinny girl within me that is dying  to get out.  Grocery shopping was very hard.  Looking around seeing all i usually buy and choosing not to.  The hardest part is thinking about the families needs .  I wish I could be self focused during all this. For lunch I had the soy patty.  It actually wasn't the bad but seeing it come together from a powder and water was to much for me.  I had fun making my Mexican deer meat.  I added no flour or cooked onions and it was very yummy.  I may have used more oil than is required and my salsa, beef broth, and canned tomatoes had some sugars.  I think they are the natural ones.  A girl has to be able to cook.

Weekly Monitoring
Weight Lost/gained - 206.5 (home w/ clothes & shoes)
Measurements Lost/gained - Bust (44), Waist (50), Hips (51)
Rate the following on a scale of 1-10 (10 being the best)
Attitude 8
Physical effects 7
Impact Family 9
Cheating/Temptation 8 
Outlying factors that made this day challenging 7
(grocery shopping)

Ideal Protein -Wk 1, D 1

Ideal Protein

 I am on a road to loose a minimum of 45 pounds.  It is a bit scary as I see my family eating What a Burger.  Going through the line, Waiting to come home to prepare my food.  Will I steel a fry,  will I feel deprived? Yet day 1 went well.  I liked the food and the vitamins gave me no trouble.  I stayed strong and felt good about it.  It is totally embracing to share the raw data of how big I really am.  But i am not doing it to tell those i love.  I am doing it to record how this is going for me and to share with others that need to hear my story.

My sinus are in real trouble.  Yet I feel much better this morning.  Maybe all the water I am drinking is helping.  I still struggled to sleep but I feel alert and in good spirits eager to make this work and take on the day.

Weekly Monitoring
Weight Lost/gained - 208.2 (Dr.s office w/ clothes & shoes)
Measurements Lost/gained - Bust (44), Waist (50), Hips (51)
Rate the following on a scale of 1-10 (10 being the best)
Attitude 9
Physical effects 9
Impact Family 9
Cheating/Temptation 9
Outlying factors that made this day challenging 5
(family ate out, I was struggling with REAL sinus trouble)

Rest or Run

The inner battle of my mind is yet on the go fast and furiously battling my next heart felt goal. If I could only be a stay at home mom. Check. I praise God it is everything I ever wanted.
If I could only have time to myself to exercise, clean, write, have lunch and date my husband. Check.
If I could only loss the weight so I could be healthy. Hmm... Eat right. All that planning, preparation. Can I really do it now? My heart tells me to be patient. Rest in this new place of freedom away from my kids before I launch into another thing that required me to plan and be accountable. On the other hand I want all this exercise to pay off. I want all my goals realized now. Opportunity is knocking at my door. I want it easy. Lord help me do it without the failure and anxiety