God is For Us

How can it be that I can still loose faith from time to time?  Seeing an opportunity to take the reigns of my life into my own hands. Instead of rejoicing in the door that may be opened planning out the next 20 steps.  Creating a decision tree in my had.  If this happens I will do this and so on.

The Mind

The mind, the mind what a wonderful terrifying place to be.  Full of so many words.  Swirling about on a never ending comet.  Playing tricks on you, taunting you, drawing you away from your purpose.  How to train this unruly beast.  For it desires so many things.  It wants to be overshadowed with a blanket of tranquil feelings that invigorate, and stimulate the whole body.  Yet when such divine nectar is denied it ruminates, contemplates and wrings its  hands.  Planning, plotting and preparing for all that we are responsible for.  For pain and suffering must be avoided at all costs.  That is what my mind desires.  Keep everyone safe.  Keep everyone in check.  Yet my mind wars in the heavenlies over how this is to be done.  Self wants to pick up the pieces and take the problem on.  While faith is much more patient, deliberate and willing to wait out the storm.  Yet faith often leaves us in our tears, makes us feel what we are experiencing and gives us hope only for what is yet to come.  Self will produce results on the spot but they most often end in ruin where faith must pick up the pieces.  Where do faith and actions find each other on this road to wholeness?  My mind wishes to betray my faith so I must turn on another voice.  A voice that is not my own.  One of reason, hope and truth.  One that reminds me that God is for us and not against us.  One that gives me strength.  It is then that the word of God must be poured into my brain on IV drip.  Allowed to fortify, replenish and drive out self's quick fix.  Songs of worship must be upon my tongue,  My feet need to dance and my body, heart and soul must become one with the spirit of God in a supernatural dance that takes me out of self.  I will be victorious over the enemies of my soul,  I will believe that God is doing all he can and should do in my situation.  I will choose this day whom I will serve.  I will tie self to to cross and demand that she surrender her will over to the knowledge of God.  For without self fully surrendered to the mission of the body we go know where.  We but wage war within our mortal bodies.  God has so much more for us to do.  Souls to be won, joy to be felt, hope to be reborn and seen by all as a testimony of his divine plan.