Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Challenges / Menopause

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Life feels good again. I have either been running to get life done or I just haven't been myself. Found out that I am in Menopause. Not sure if my over dose of emotions are because of the news or just part of the package. I have been having cycles every 21 days for about 6 months and I seem to have less and less control over my emotions. I feel like all my thermostats are broken. When I get hot I just get hotter. Mad, madder. Cold, colder. Sad, sadder. Before I could talk myself out of a melt down and now I feel like I am just along for the ride. Church on Sunday. I cried the whole service. I wasn't touched by the message, nor was I sad but boy were the water works flowing. I was embarrassed.

I am so glad to have run into a few ladies that are older than me that are giving me some courage and direction.

The last few days I have been on top of my game. No thoughts or feelings that I don't want. I know I need to make an appointment for the OB and go pick up some herbal help but hate to put a damper on a good day.

I am looking forward to what God is going to teach me in this season and take great encouragement that this will be the last hormonal roller coaster I have to ride. It may be unpredictable now, but I will figure it out, and have peace and direction about how to manage all my symptoms.

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