Baby of May / Did I cause her death?

It was after a bought of sickness that I lost baby of May. Driven to stay healthy I go to the Med Clinic. As my fear come out as tears and words of apparent ignorance the Doctor reassures me that sickness wouldn't have caused the loss of our precious baby of May. My clinical, rational side felt silly for asking, but something inside needed such affirmation. Angry and frustrated that yet again I would be less than my best for a holiday. To be sick without regret, is something I have yet to learn.